Hi! Welcome to More Than Many Sparrows Boutique. My name is Amber (this is me) and my goal is to share inspiration with others through my creations. Here is a little bit of my story:
My boutique started as a "side venture" when parents and fellow teachers saw the "memory board" I had made myself for my classroom. Other items got added overtime, other ones got dropped. I started selling mainly as a fundraiser for a planned missions trip to Africa back in 2009. I never got to go on that trip (keep reading...). It then became a way for me to "stay afloat" (a teacher's salary wasn't keep us 'in the money'). My boutique started out with the name "...With Sugar on Top" and held to my vision that sometimes the "little" things in life make it extraordinary and I hoped to offer those little things to make people smile. Admittedly, the goal is still the same, although it has changed over the years... |
| June 5, 2004 |
"Sparrows" are a personal "symbol" for me and my journey. To add just a little background to the story. My husband, Charles and I have been married for 10 years this June. Here we are -------> we were babies!
We have no greater desire than to be parents. All I have ever wanted to be is a mommy. I can remember playing "mommy" to my baby dolls as early as 2-3 years old- I was a teacher for many years and I love children; but there is something absolutely basic about creating your own family. We have been trying to have children for 7 years now.
4 years ago, we got our wish and then 4 short weeks later (at 7 weeks) lost the baby. (Thus ended my plans to travel to Africa). I was completely devastated. I lost my faith- my passion- my life... I was depressed and completely apathetic towards my life and anything/everyone in it.
Somehow through the pain I found a way to crawl back...a long, slow crawl... to reality. One day I was staring out the window at the little memorial garden we had build for our precious little one and I saw a sparrow fly into one of the birdhouses we had. I sat and watched the tiny bird chirp, stick his head out the peephole and for the first time I felt myself smiling. I don't know how long I watched the happy creature, but I started to ask myself "if God cares so much for this tiny little bird, doesn't he care so much more for me?" I made myself face the pain and turn the energy into something else- my little "hobbies" turned them into a business. Sparrow Song Boutique was born and I began selling items again.
My slogan has always been "Custom Handmade Home Décor and Accessories that prove the 'little things' make life extraordinary". I feel like anything I make that can give someone a little bit of joy, encouragement or confidence is worth the effort and the time!
This past year my husband and I were overjoyed (and scared) to find ourselves expecting again. We held out hope for this little miracle, but were again completely devastated to make it all the way to 11 weeks when our loss occurred. Nothing can ever take this pain away. This loss was even more overwhelming than the first. We had waited 3 more years for our second chance only to have it torn away again. Along with this loss came some health complications that I am still learning to deal with on a daily basis...
My journey has definitely been a painful and "rocky" one- but happily it is a JOURNEY and isn't over yet. Some days I can't see anything but darkness; but some days I can still see that tiny sparrow in the back of my mind singing. I know that my two tiny sparrows are in God's hands and I can only pray that one day I will be fully blessed with a child. I feel like I am just one voice of so many others out there who have been touched by this type of grief. We are Christians and we know and believe that one day we will meet our children, but while we are here on earth all we can do is remember and honor their short lives.
I have felt these past few months while dealing with all of these issues that my business is changing too- I truly desire that in some tiny way my products and custom items give someone out there the hope, strength, faith and confidence to enjoy their own journey through life. I hope that I can show others through my journey and through my daily life that they are also WORTH MORE THAN MANY SPARROWS. (and the name change again...)
It is difficult to type something like this through the tears in my eyes and put it "out there" in the universe for all to see. However, I felt like it was an important part of sharing my name and what my goal is in creating special items for others who may need a "sparrow" to remind them of their own journey! I guess that I blew the "short little post" part of my opening statement! :-)
"...Do not be afraid; You are worth more than many sparrows"
Amber
More Than Many Sparrows Boutique
Matthew 10:31
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